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Epistola: In Carcare et Vinculus [] 囚于铁窗锁链中的一封信
朱纯深译
[January-March 1897] 雷丁监狱
. Prison, Reading
1897 年 1 - 3 月
1 Dear Bosie, After long and fruitless waiting I have 亲爱的波西: 1
determined to write to you myself, as much for your 经过长久的、毫无结果的等待之后, 我
sake as for mine, as I would not like to think that I 决定还是由我写信给你,为了我也为了
had passed through two long years of 你。因为我不想看到自己在漫长的两年
imprisonment without ever having received a
囚禁中,除了使我痛心的传闻外,连你
single line from you, or any news or message even,
except such as gave me pain[1a]. 的一行书信,甚至一点消息或口信都没
收到[1 a ] 。
2 Our ill-fated and most lamentable friendship 我们之间坎坷不幸、令人痛心疾首 2
has ended in ruin and public infamy for me[2a], yet 的友谊, 已经以我的身败名裂而告结束
the memory of our ancient affection is often with [2 a ] 。但是, 那段久远的情意却常在记忆
me[2b] the thought that loathing, bitterness
me , and the thought that loathing, bitterness 中伴随着我[2 b ] ,而一想到自己心中那曾
and contempt should for ever take that place in
经盛着爱的地方,就要永远让憎恨和苦
my heart once held by love is very sad to me[2c]:
and you yourself will, I think, feel in your heart that 涩、轻蔑和屈辱所占据,我就会感到深
to write to me as I lie in the loneliness of prison-life 深的悲哀[2 c ] 。你自己心中,我想,将会
is better than to publish my letters without my 感到, 当我孤独地卧在铁窗内服刑时,
permission or to dedicate poems to me unasked, 给我写信要胜过未经许可发表我的书
though the world will know nothing of whatever 信、或者自作主张地为我献诗;虽然这
words of grief or passion, of remorse or 样世人将一点也不知道你的所为,不管
indifference you may choose to send as your
你选择怎样充满悲哀或激情、悔恨或冷
answer or your appeal[2d].
漠的言辞来回应或者叫屈[2 d ] 。
3 I have no doubt that in this letter in which I 毫无疑问这封信中所写的关于你还 3
have to write of your life and of mine, of the past and 有我的生活,关于过去和将来,关于美
of the future, of sweet things changed to bitterness 好变成苦痛以及苦痛或可成为欢乐, 个
and of bitter things that may be turned into joy, there 中很有一些东西会深深伤到你的虚荣
will be much that will wound your vanity to the
心的。果真如此的话,那就一遍又一遍
quick. If it prove so, read the let